Never Ending Praise The Lord

Psalm 16:11 (ESV) You make known to me the path of life; In your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

“I’m so sorry, but there is no heartbeat.”

I was near halfway in my pregnancy when the above words were spoken. I sat in the sonogram room where it was so quiet you could hear a pin drop, yet there was not even the sound of breath coming from anyone in the room. The news left me completely shattered and I felt as though someone had pulled the rug out from under me. Later that same day, I was induced and endured a very intense labor process. I gave birth to my sleeping angel early the next morning.

In the days that followed, I was in a very dark place. I didn’t know up from down, and it seemed like I was on autopilot. Who knows what took place each day? But I do know I spent a lot of time in my office writing and crying.

One night, as I sat at my desk, I remember looking around as if searching for something- anything to hold on to, anything that would help me with emotions I didn’t know what to do with. I felt deep in my heart that I was at a crossroad, and I had a choice to make.

I could blame God for every broken part of my life and chase darkness, or I could ask God for rescue. I was drowning and so desperate for a life preserver. I didn’t want more darkness, I wanted light. It was in the quiet of that moment where I cried out to God, telling him exactly how I felt and what I needed.

And you know my friend, The Lord hears you and he listens. I felt his love wrap around me as he told me that he was there, he’d been waiting for me, and this was my moment to say yes.

Not only was his hand healing and comforting, but he filled me with a joy I never knew. When you hear, “my cup runneth over” THIS WAS THAT! Years later, I still feel that joy just overflowing. The only place that joy can come from is the LORD.

Psalm 30:5b tells us that weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. There is an end to look forward to. It doesn’t mean our heartache goes away, just that Jesus will joyfully find us in the midst of brokenness and heartache.

So sit back, take a deep breath and allow Jesus to wrap his arms around you. This is your moment to say, Yes, Lord, come.